♥ You were everything to me

Being in love is an extraperfectional feeling of joy :)

Shona, ❤

Monday, February 16, 2009 7:17 PM

I'm BACK !

After sooo lonngggg !!

Anywaaayy

Will start Bloggin as per normal !

It's amazing how a short time with him can make my day.

Baby i love uu !

Thankk uu Very very much x1000000 & go's on

For the POOH & The Cardd !

Iloveu !

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THIS IS A LONG WORDY POST.

Don't waste your time.

I was just to let out my feelings for the day, alone.

& forget it

HIM !

(ARAVIND)

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It had to be this day when I had to think about you.

Where we first met and my impressions of you.

How we contacted and met up almost the whole week to 'study' for the following week.

That movie that you paid for when we met the second time together with JonT all and Clara.

How this went on for another 3 weeks.

When you wanted to help/protect/defend me for that period.

You got lost when you sent me home for the first time.

Plus, getting owned by a uncle riding a bicycle when you said there was a car.

And how you were claiming that I was rich.

For every single reason.

EVEN THE FLAT.

That magically became my 12 storey high house.

And that first time when I went to meet you at Bedok.

Just you and I to study at the library.

All those study dates.

National library,

I remembered.

At the airport after school.

Over at Pasir Ris's Macs for some period.

That I've went to meet you after Mid Years papers.

How we got together when I asked you out for a church play.

That we went to a Toy Museum that day too.

Went for movies after school, Cine, usually.

When you once sent me home and we sat under a block drawing on the newspaper.

And during the June Holidays, when we always went to Munchy Donut cos I couldn't go out.

And still remembered that this one time when it was raining, my slippers came out 6 times.Our, not so many dates, cos I was always not allowed to go out. :/

Slacking with you before I went home.

How you'll send me home and as we talk on the way .

How we just suddenly got so close and the next not and then again.

When I slowly got comfortable being with you.

Having you to hug me so tightly like nothing could even touch me.

Our dates at Cine, Leisure Park and how I was being able to let you know something I wanted to say.

Gossips to some extend.

Crapping.

Remembered the first time I called you baby at Bedok Inter's shoe shop

when Eileen was getting school shoes.

Those gyms and you'll always pester me to go.

The first night I spent with you at Pasir Ris Park, star gazing.

And you throwing your cards like they were nothing.

When I first went to your house and your dad saw us together.

Our 5th Month night spent together.

Until 3am,

over at Night Safari then Pool.

Then we played Monopoly the day after.

When you started coming over to my house to 'study'.

Sigh.

Still remembered the first time I played with your coolie touch screen comp and laughed so hard over it.

Plus when you played your Fifa and ignored me.

And I played the F1 game.

That time when I drew all over you when you were over at my house.

We 'wrestled'.

You carried me upside down.

When we went downstairs to get you lunch and saw that stalker, you were there to assure me.

Our stupid cold war before EOY last year.

The cute cute Baby Pooh that I passed to you to keep.

Ignored you and ignored me at Cine.

Total quietness.

Our 2 hour ride from Clementi to Bedok.

Queenstown Ice Kachang with you at random timings.

Your only rugby match I went and you wanted to hug me when you were all muddy and yucky.

Our bus stop picture that everyone envied.

The ulu studio you brought HweeBeng and I to,

with your friends.

On my E-Learning day,

you skipped school to accompany me to Airport.

+ you scared me early in the morning.

+ we spent the whole day at Macs.

+ you helped to carry my heavy bag from MRT all the way to school and walk back to MRT.

My first attempt to make a rose and I gave that to you.

We went to Victoria Theatre for that Chinese Dance which you said it was boring.

You piggybacked me that night and we went over to Lau Pa Sat.

How I was always late and got you mad cos I couldn't reach Dover in time.

When you first accompanied me to the dentist trip.

With my fried shafi.

And bus 12 home.

Parkway with Melyn to buy her Month-asary present and you guys got so embarrassed.

Also, that cycling trip that was cancelled when everyone was late and we waited for shops to be opened.

Really early in the morning.

All those sweet texts early in the morning and at night.

HOW I LOVED THE WAY YOU CALLED ME BABY.

How I'd be so happy inside when you called me even just to ask some short things.

And even happier when you called at night which you barely do so.

The way you compared with my exs that I really did only love you.

Even until now.

The last third time when we met was the day you sent me off.

Met me early in the morning, skipped part of your training.

That lovely last morning with you.

And boy, your lovely 6,7,8 pages long texts caring for me.

Telling me to take care, everything.

Everything that you could think of.

It was the sweetest thing anyone did.

And your baby bolster!

The second last time we met was on New Year's morning.With daddy

Talking and stuff.

The last time we met was at Boy's home.

Which I'm sure you remember.

Even if you don't, not surprised.

And we slowly just stopped contacting much.

The next thing I knew was the worse.

I broke up with you. Yes. Had an upsetting CNY.

Afterwhich I always reminisce about the past.

Where things were so different when you don't care anymore.

Where bus rides home made me think why weren't you beside me when I was so tired.

I had no arm to hug around me and shoulder to rest my head on.

Walking home alone was so, quiet.

No one to hold my hand, hold me close, tease and hug me before I head home after a long tiring day.

Even after reaching home,

I'll tend to ponder why didn't you come home with me like you did before.

I was alone after that.

Very scary.

Who knows if that stalker would be stalking me anytime.

You were being so ignorant even after claiming that you wanted to be,

'close friends'.

I dare not talk to you.

Again.

Ever.

I don't want to be an idiot,

making myself hurt for no reason.

As much as I want to,

your ignorance is like,

worse than anything else.

Sigh.

No more,

I'm proud to be your girl kinda thing.

No more 'studydates' at my house.

No more everything.

What a lonely Valentine.

Hey!

If you even read til here, remembered when I said sorry to you on MSN?

It was for all those times when I broke your promise and talk to guys.

With this only one time that I lied to you about my friends bringing me out when it was an excuse not to meet you

cos I was still shy with you then.

Well, even if you don't see this,

it's okay. Doubt you'll

even be reading it.Okay,

I'll just stop here.

Cos if I were to say about those things that I was doing not letting you know (not bad, was stuffs that were suppose to be the Anni gift),

it'll be way longer than expected.

I miss the old days.

I miss your hugs.

I miss you.

I wish I'll coincidentally see you on the street.

I wish this will be the day that I forget all about you.

Being in love with you torments me.

I feel better letting it out and crying yesterday.

I'll move on, right? (:

I wna get over this.

Pronto.So there'll be;

No more being sad,

No more crying,

No more emoing at night,

No more crying myself to sleep,

No more endless days of missing you.

SUP.

i KNOW it takes time !

BoiFreak i just loveee u !

only u Baby !

Promise Never to LEAVE mi ?

When youâ€™d no longer be there

For me to gaze upon in delight

And all our feelings shareIs impossible for

in my lifeIs where I want you to be

Always, and forever"